Sedih dan Kecewa... Namun tetap bersyukur....

And when it rains,
On this side of town it touches, everything.
Just say it again and mean it.
We don't miss a thing.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And convinced yourself that
It's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore

And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?

And when it rains,
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away,
From all of the ones who love you,
From everything.
You made yourself a bed
At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And you'll sleep 'til May
And you'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore

And oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
And oh, oh, I need the ending.
So why can't you stay just long enough to explain?

Take your time.
Take my time.

Take these chances to turn it around. (take your time)
Take these chances, we'll make it somehow
And take these chances to turn it around. (take my...)
Just turn it around.

Oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh, how could you do it?
Oh I, I never saw it coming.
Oh, oh I need an ending.
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain?

You can take your time, take my time.

Lagu Paramore tersebut mungkin yang paling cocok untuk menggambarkan suasana hati ku pagi ini....

Yaaa... Pagi ini, ditengah-tengah semua orang sedang asik bermimpi ke awang-awang, aku dikejutkan dengan bunyi dering HP.... Ada telepon yang asing menurutku, namun aku tau asal nomor tersebut berasal dari sebuah perumahan elit di kawasan Jakarta Utara... Dan yang lebih mengejutkan lagi adalah berita yang tersampaikan melalui telepon tersebut yang membuatku kaget sekaligus shock sambil bertanya-tanya sendiri dalam hati.... KOK BISA.....!!!!!!!!

SEDIH dan KECEWA....Perasaan ini muncul kembali setelah 2 tahun menghilang.... Tahun dimana pada waktu itu diriku amat terpukul karena kehilangan seorang teman kampusku yang tega menghabisi nyawanya sendiri.... Saat itu kami semua amat sangat terpukul dengan berita kematiannya... Dan yang amat sangat saya sayangkan adalah.... MENGAPA KAU BEGITU BODOH....!!!! itulah kata-kata yang saya ungkapkan kepada mayat almarhum.... Dan perkataan ini keluar lagi pagi ini.....

SEDIH dan KECEWA.... Untuk kedua kalinya dalam hidupku, aku harus menghadapi kenyataan bahwa salah satu orang temanku yang ku kenal cukup baik, meninggalkan dunia ini dengan cara yang tidaklah wajar.... Sebagai teman, terus terang aku merasa sedih dan kecewa.... Karena tidak dapat memberikan solusi terhadap masalah yang ia hadapi & terlebih tidak dapat mencegahnya melakukan bunuh diri.....
SEDIH dan KECEWA.... Tidak bisa menjadi teman yang baik.....

Namun aku tetap bersyukur.... Karena dengan kejadian ini, semakin menguatkan hati ini... Bahwa hidup amatlah berharga.... Tuhan sudah memberikan nafas kepada kita untuk menjalani hari ini dan memberikan kita kesempatan untuk hidup... Jadi manfaatkanlah dengan sebaik-baiknya daripada membuat keputusan bodoh dalam hidup.... Sebuntu apapun hidup kita, jangan pernah berpaling dariNya.....

Sekarang aku hanya dapat mendoakannya, semoga Tuhan memaafkan & memberikan jalan yang terbaik untuk sampai di sisiNya.... Selamat jalan temanku.... Terimakasih kau pernah hadir dalam hidupku, yang saling memberikan warna pada perjalanan hidup kita masing-masing..... Terimakasih atas segala yang pernah hadir diantara kita.... Istirahat dan lanjutkan lah perjalanan & petualangan mu berikutnya.... From deep inside of my heart, I forgive you....
GOD BE WITH YOU MY FRIEND.....

I dreamt I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
'Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving?
When I'm done here?
So if you're asking me I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I've made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

I close both locks below the window
I close both blinds and turn away
Sometimes solutions aren't so simple
Sometimes goodbye's the only way

And the sun will set for you
The sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in grey
And the sun will set for you

Pink cards and flowers on your window
Your friends all plead for you to stay
Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple
Sometimes goodbye's the only way

And the sun will set for you
The sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in grey
And the sun will set for you

And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in grey
And the sun will set for you

And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in grey
And the sun will set for you

Jangan melihat dunia dengan mata terbuka.. Namun, Lihatlah dunia dengan mata tertutup....
Lihat dan rasakanlah dunia dengan hatimu...
GOD BLESS YOU ALL....^_^